Saturday, December 26, 2009

We Have An Advantage

Christian believers have a great advantage over those that oppose the faith.  We are able to go directly to the throne room of God for those things that we need and trust Him for.   We we pray, let's consider those that are out of the way, God loves them too and wants to also adopt them into His family like  He did with us.  They just need our prayer and support that His love and conviction may draw them in.

Happy Holidays


Sunday, December 13, 2009

People Mistakenly Misrepresent God

I was having a conversation with a Pastor and he asked me something's about my growing up and how my guardians (Grandparents) taught me about the Lord. I explained to him that my grandparents, in their ignorance, misrepresented things of God. Some things that I was told about God I later found out weren't quite true. As a young child I was in ways afraid of God but not in reverence or respect but literal fear like you'd fear a monster or ghost. The bible teaches that "God has not given us the spirit of fear but, power, love, and a sound mind." He told me that by teaching me the ways of God my grandparents did me a favor, never mind the fact that I really didn't understand Gods love by their teaching. Needless to say I was so taken a back and disgusted by what this preacher was saying because of my experience and how a lot of inner healing took place when I decided to learn from God for myself. I gained a totally different perspective of God. I was also told that some need to be scared into salvation. For an ignorant child, scaring someone into salvation is already the false view of the gospel. If I were committing crimes in the street and searing my own conscience then yes, I need to be saved with fear. If, I'm a 7 year old child with minimal understanding I should be sat down and explained the Gospel of Christ. People mistakenly misrepresent God for a few reasons one of them is that they do not understand his love or their value. God is love and when we're headed down a dangerous path He warns us but He also lets us know of His love and that he wants us to be in unity with Him. We're His children, and what loving Father doesn't want unity with his kids?

I'll add more to this in a few days but first I'd like to ask; has God ever been misrepresented to you? In what way and how did regain true revelation of His nature?

Monday, December 7, 2009

Yeah Well, Who Asked You Anyway?

People can be cruel.  Now that, that has been established how would you handle it if you're a believer or just a person not looking to be tossed and turned by every word someone says about you?   IDENTITY, Identity, identity!!! Your very important 3-in-1 word. No one has a right to determine you, but you the only living being that has a right to give you identity is God, our Creator. Our identity is found in knowing him anything else is second rate and more often than not ungodly in nature.   People are going to say, you're stupid, lazy, ugly, a waste of space, a looser etc etc BUT who's listening to that when you have a calling and destiny that you're trying to pursue for your own life ?  A solidified identity is  found in the Word of God which says, Jeremiah 1:5  Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations. God was telling Jeremiah here that he even before he was formed in his mothers womb he knew everything about him that means he also knew His purpose and destiny with Jeremiah.

Man doesn't have all the answers to our questions and we're certainly  all learning, for no one knows everything and opinions are certainly what they are.  Pray for those that hurt you and speak out against you, that use you, that persecute you and watch the blessings fall in your direction as you gain strength and confidence in  God and in your self, that's what God wants he wants us to be confident in Him and in our selves.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Christian People Learning How to Deal with Difficult Times

By Kim Brock

I read an awesome blog by this man who calls himself "The Tattooed Preacher." His blog dealt with going through times of uncertainty about God and His purpose when going through a difficult season(s). Sometimes God will allow a season of difficulties and the testimony will enlighten other members of the body to act on and react to their own situations which hopefully, will begin a season of battle in their spiritual lives.

Jesus, during His ministry talked about how Satan comes to, kill, steal and destroy. The most powerful organ in the human body is the brain which links to every other organ in the whole body. The brain communicates with the other organs commanding them to perform certain functions so; the body is powerless with out the mind in its case. When Satan comes to our mind, and this occurs mostly in the midst of some circumstances he will attack the mind first, once the mind has been tainted it will manifest all types of wrong acts in our lives if we react to those things remote of Gods Word. There's so much pain and suffering in the world that we need God to give us understanding and comfort.

What I'm learning is that God will allow us pain and suffering whether or not we are being obedient. We can follow and love Him with out whole hearts and still go through trials and tribulations the difference when you're obedient to the Lord is that you're equipped to handle those trials and tribulations, you trust Him, His word and who He says that you are in Christ our Lord.

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which according to his abundant mercy hath begotten us again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, To an inheritance incorruptible, and undefiled, and that fadeth not away, reserved in heaven for you, Who are kept by the power of God through faith unto salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ: Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory: Receiving the end of your faith, even the salvation of your souls. (1Pe 1:3-9)

Our trials are preparing us for glory; we must go through them to build our hope and faith in the Lord and our character. Imagine being appointed by man instead of God for your purpose with out ever going through a trial or tribulation in your life. What ministry will you include for the people of God who need comfort and guidance from a sister or brother in Christ? And God forbid if a condition comes into your life it may consume you because God did not equip you, man did and man does not have the power that the Holy Spirit has to bless you and help you with what you're going through.

Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy. If ye be reproached for the name of Christ, happy are ye; for the spirit of glory and of God resteth upon you: on their part he is evil spoken of, but on your part he is glorified. But let none of you suffer as a murderer, or as a thief, or as an evildoer, or as a busybody in other men's matters. Yet if any man suffer as a Christian, let him not be ashamed; but let him glorify God on this behalf. For the time is come that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if it first begin at us, what shall the end be of them that obey not the gospel of God? And if the righteous scarcely be saved, where shall the ungodly and the sinner appear? Wherefore let them that suffer according to the will of God commit the keeping of their souls to him in well doing, as unto a faithful Creator. (1Pe 4:12-19)

To sum up with this group of scripture is saying, DON'T GIVE UP!!! Keep seeking and striving for God. Those that do never regret the blessings that comes from their reliance on the Heavenly Father, our God and Creator.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009


Before my job, I went 7 months with out any work or unemployment income. That time was very hard for me but since I have a job now seems so far in the distances. I was so very thankful for this job once it was offered to me and I was excited to see how the store was ran exactly. 3 months later I'm in a bit of a conflict. I already mapped out how i was going to approach this job, quiet, cordial and professional. The store didn't match my expectations at all, often I'm talked down to because I'm quiet on the job, most people that know me know that when I'm comfortable I'm definitely a talker and opinionated but that's among friends and in a more comfortable situation. The people that I work with aren't my friends, they're my co-workers so there's a level of respect that has to go with the job. I've also noticed the amount of back bitting that occurs. I remember being in high school and doing it and i still make that mistake but I recognize what I do so i don't want to add fire to the flames with it. What bothers me most though is just the way I'm treated as an employee. it's not cause for a bigger complaint I just need to decided what I'm going to do with the situation that's been given to me.

A soft answer turns away wrath but grievous words stir up anger so says the biblical proverb. When you are striving to be one with the creator adversity will most definitely come your way, not because you deserve it but because the 'world' hates good, hates security. For example In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2. The same was in the beginning with God. 3. All things were mad by him; and without him was not anything made that was made. 4. In him was life; and the life was the light of men. 5 And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not. John 1:1-5

Also ....

He that believeth on him is not condenmed: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. 19. And this is the condemnation that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. 20. For everyone that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. 21. But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God. John 3:18-21

No one person is perfect and when we have accepted Christ as Lord of our lives and God as a Father and Creator, in this dark world we are going to be subject to a lot of things we may not desire to be. No matter what I face on my job my integrity is always going to be at the forefront , I believe, because I'm doing something different than what everyone else is doing and I'm in Christ. And in the condition that this world is in morally we got to strive for God and keep the faith in Him

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

God, You're to blame!!!

All types of circumstance embrace our lives.   Some we can see coming and others spring up to our surprise.   many people in the world have come to a belief that God exists either because they really have seen the evidence, or they were raised to believe.  although, I was raised to believe in God i needed convincing for myself that he was in favor of me and of my life.  Due to lack of knowledge of Gods nature i felt a necessity to blame him as things went wrong in my immediate life.  
my mom passed away in 2000.  maybe a month before that i had gone to visit her and the visit was very negative, she was very negative about how she was treating herself and then accused me of stealing money from her, yikes. I was about 15 at the time and really didn't understand what was going on and why she kept accusing me but, she was deteriorating and things like that tend to happen.  sadly, that was the last real memory that i had of her.    I saw that she was suffering and while i told my grandma that i would not visit her again because, i was so angry i also prayed to God and ask that he let her life end or heal her because she was suffering, then she passed away.  i felt a need to blame God because of the sadness i felt at her passing.  she was never in my life and now the sure hope of that opportunity for her and for myself was gone for ever.   I don't think that i held on to that blame very long but, it was long enough for bitterness and unforgiveness to build up inside of my heart.   I felt so guilty that i had that one last memory so i worked hard not to really think about it yet, when something like that is lodged in your heart it will manifest it self in different ways. "Keep thy heart with all diligence, for out of it are the issues of life." The bible instructs us to guard our hearts that is because we love to hold on to things negative and that have hurt us, when we do that situation, or person sometimes gives them power over us when they've moved on from the situation and most likely ignorant of doing anything wrong.

God i the creator of the universe and because he  is our natural understand is that he causes ALL things to occur. Well, there are some things he will cause and other things that he will ALLOW. What he allows is most often what we allow. If your mother or father used and abused drugs for most of their adult life with out repentance disease will settle into their lives, cause & effect.  There are some questions along those lines that i can't even answer although i wish i knew why.   Most of it would include  why this person has said this or that ? Or, why would this person do this or that to me or someone else? In situations like that I believe the most powerful answer you can give is your reaction.  You're reaction should, in all those cases, be humbled and Godly with out  being on the edge of vengeance which would reap  a greater situation then you probably asked for.  

In cases of death, i found that prayer about your feelings toward the situation help definitely in the healing process.  When my dad became ill in 2008, suffering from his second  and most severe stroke I felt a great sense of unfairness because I had one parent who had been gone for almost 10 years, 8 specifically and my only parent left was and still gravely ill. "Wow , Lord, you don't want me to have any type of happiness in life huh?" I thought , that's just a few words ...anger rekindled and I could only say that this was unfair. I never gave a second thought, at that time to how badly my dad started to treat himself with drinking.  After his first stroke he  was prescribed medicines  that he would have to take for the rest of his life and that depressed him. So, rather than dealing with having to take those pills to deal with that reality he increased  his drinking and not long after his 1st stroke he suffered the second one and is still in a comma.

God gave us a clear mind and ability to deal with the life ahead of us.  Without unity with Him we can either simply, grow further apart from His reality  or, use things to replace Him, drugs, alcohol, sex etc...
There's nothing really logical about destroying yourself because you can't deal, but it's more prevalent than ever.

Unity with God means that we have communication with Him, which happens anywhere not just inside the church or the church parking lot. Unity with God is just what it is unity with God which is accomplished through Christ. When the unity is accomplished we are better able to get through the dysfunctions of life with out heading for self destruction.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009


America's consumer industry has created many 'devices' in hopes of filling their pockets and alleviating our unhappiness and stresses. time has proven that no matter how much you gain financially, using your finances as away to obtain joy and happiness doesn't have a long term betterment.

The liquor industry is very rich and powerful from marketing it's product as one that would make you happy, help your personality to flourish or life easier to cope with. Many years ago....before I was born, even before my parents were born alcohol was illegal to sell. Prohibition : the period (1920–33) when the Eighteenth Amendment was in force and alcoholic beverages could not legally be manufactured, transported, or sold in the U.S. For 13 years Alcohol was not allowed, in any form, to be produced in the USA. Some where in between that time the Government found that they could make tons of money from it's production and lifted the band. I'm quite sure that the long term affects were some what understood although more in depth 'today.'

When material things were bought and sold to meet the needs of people marketing approaches changed in such a way that would meet the needs of peoples emotions. For example, a cell phone is a necessity because house phones cannot be transported and that industry complimented those that were rich, busy bodies, and could afford it. Now, cell phones are bought and sold through our necessity to have the latest of something and to make ourselves feel better about our social condition.

The Bible (word of God) tells us that abundance is not contained in the things a 'man' owns. Then he said to them, "Be careful to guard yourselves against every kind of greed, for a person's life doesn't consist of the amount of possessions he has." (Luke 12:15 ISV)

So as long as we have food and clothes, we will be satisfied with these. But people who want to get rich keep toppling into temptation and are trapped by many stupid and harmful desires that plunge them into destruction and ruin. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, in their eagerness to get rich, have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with much pain. (1 Timothy 6:8-10 ISV)

Keep your lives free from the love of money, and be content with what you have, for God has said, "I will never leave you or abandon you." Hence we can confidently say, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can anyone do to me?"
(Hebrews 13:5-6 ISV)

God does want us to have peace and joy. But it is through His love for us and vise-versa that it is obtain. Without God all that we have is our hunt for that one material item that will appease our whole lives and I'm sure that a lot of men and women have died trying to find it.
Have faith in the word and work of Christ and the love of God so that our heart and soul will be prioritized.


If's a video on the development of the consumer industry according Siegmund Freud's theories titled "The Century of the Self"- Happy Machines by Adam Curtis

Saturday, November 14, 2009


We have a choice to react in a well or bad way to things said or done to us.  Our responsibility isn't for what someone has to say to us we are responsible for our own reactions no matter what may happen.

A hot-tempered man stirs up strife, but he who is slow to anger quiets contention. (Proverbs 15:18 ) The wisdom in Proverbs guides us on how to deal with being angered by a person or a situation.

A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.
  (Proverbs 15:1 ESV)

Remember that old saying "If you don't have something nice to say, don't say it at all?" That's a great statement and is complemented by the above Proverbs.  No matter what's been done the accountability is on us. We are responsible for our selves and I believe personally if we make the decision to not be accountable we reap what's sown from our actions and reactions.

God loves us and wants us to be representatives of Him. How we carry ourselves is a sure example of how we feel about ourselves internally. Even if you don't serve God you still have  an accountability to yourself to respect yourself and own up to things that you say and do, which we all will give an account for at the day of Judgment.

Offspring of vipers! How can you, being evil, speak good things? For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. A good man out of the good treasure of the heart brings out good things; and an evil man out of the evil treasure brings out evil things. But I say to you that every idle word, whatever men may speak, they shall give account of it in the day of judgment. For by your words you shall be justified, and by your words you shall be condemned.  (Matthew 12:34-37 MKJV)

So, if we aren't holding ourselves accountable and we will not allow others too as well we are not maturing and allowing ourselves to be corrected in love and concern.

Thank you Lord for showing me this for myself I pray that I will learn to react better to those things that I face, for your honor and glory in Jesus name Amen.

Monday, November 9, 2009

The “Us” Factor from “God’s Love Letter” (my project)

Written in 2006

The "Us" Factor

This writing is intended to reveal the true heart of our Daddy God, through life experiences past and present I will attempt to let the reader know and by the power of the Holy Spirit, believe in their hearts that God is absolutely in love with you and also to remind myself of this marvelous reality.

    Through scripture we know that "God commends his love toward us…" He revealed, introduced, show forth His own love toward us. Even though we've done wrong, God demonstrated His love toward us all. Even in our sins, He covered us in his love and rescued us sending His only-begotten son, Jesus our Lord to die on the Cross in our place.

When Adam and Eve sinned in the garden Genesis records that God covered them Genesis 3:21 Unto Adam also and to his wife did the LORD God make coats of skins, and clothed them.

What great love that God would forsake His own Son on our behalf. Matthew 27:43 "He trusted in God; let Him deliver Him now if He will have Him; for He said, "I am the son of God." NKJV…27:46 And about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying, "Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?" that is, My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?" NKJV also.

At a time where Jesus needed his Father the most He was forsook by His own. I remember when the film "The passion of the Christ" was in theaters a person responded to the crucifixion by saying "If I was there I would have saved Jesus" There are 2 things wrong with that statement:

1) If Jesus did not die for our sins, we would have been doomed to fail in our own strivings.

2) We would have never experienced the abundant life Jesus came to provide.

Though it is believed to be conditional, God's love is in fact unconditional. He is not discriminatory upon who He loves and doesn't although, some may argue. Sometimes we wonder if God, even though we are saved by Jesus Christ our Lord, our insecurity takes us into a realm of un-belief where we are not sure if God really loves us or not or, does His love sway back and forth with what we do against or fail to do for Him out of disobedience? The bible talks about God loving us with an everlasting love and drawing us to Him with His loving kindness and tender mercies. (Jeremiah 31:3)

See also John 3:16-17, 18-19 (Whole Chapter as context)

John 3:16 Says this...For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

He (God) loved the world "this way" that he delivered, suffered , gave, his only begotten Son (not just son of God but a son of Man also) that whosoever meaning, whomever will, whole etc should believe or entrust, have faith in Jesus, should not , die, but have life forever …!!!

Gods Love letter says that He loves you with an everlasting love and he has drawn you unto Him with loving kindness.

    As God began to heal my heart and really renew my life a lot of my past began to come back to my memory. Things that I had forgotten God allowed again to come to my memories a lot of humiliating moments where I felt abandoned and alone. One time I could remember was when I was in first grade. My mother had come to my elementary school. I was so ashamed because I knew even at a young age that my family was dysfunctional I was afraid that she would make a scene, all I remembered feeling was utter embarrassment; I was afraid she was high or would again just make a scene. I knew a lot of my class mates had both parents living in the home. I hardly had one. The only stable person I felt was in my life was my grandmother and my father, although he had problems of his own. The lack of parenting in my life breed a very shameful personality I was deeply insecure. Food was a comfort for me and that led me to be overweight at a young age I was teased and rejected early on in life as I saw it. I saw myself as disgusting, unwanted unloved, not worth anything. We weren't born into this world asking for these things although we've received them, because of sin we now have a duty to work toward freedom through the Lord Jesus Christ.

John 8:36 "Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.

     "Hurting people hurt people" if you understand this statement, congratulations that door to healing for you has just been unlocked. The reason is you've just admitted or acknowledge that those that have hurt you have also been hurt by others in a vicious wounding cycle. The end result of these acts is un-forgiveness, bitterness, betrayal and, resentment. Without the Father's rescue and love, Satan has access to you through those emotions which are brought by our human *sinful* nature. Now, we have these feelings that bring about habits, habits that feed sinful emotions. But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed. Habits and evil intuition is the water that allows these emotions to grow and become us. James 1:14 NKJV

God's word tells us in John 10:10 that Satan came to kill steal and destroys, but that Jesus came that we might have life in abundance. When Satan comes to kill, what is he killing in our lives? Dreams and goals, endurance and struggle. What does he want to steal? Joy, peace, and knowledge of Gods word. Gifts that God has given to us from His throne. What or who is he trying to destroy? Us. Encouragement comes in knowing God has provided for us ways to escape through His marvelous words of promise.

When we speak and declare the promises of the Lord and what He is saying about us, we capitalize on our Enemy's wiles and are adding victories to our lives through our everyday battles in the spirit.

2 Corinthians 10:3-6 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh (4) (for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God to the casting down of strong holds); (5) casting down imaginations, and every high thing that is exalted against the knowledge of God, and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ; (6) and being in readiness to avenge all disobedience, when your obedience shall be fulfilled.

We are the apple of our Daddy's eye. We are his main focus His choice interest. Daddy God woos us and draws us to Him with his Love and Mercies if, we would only seek Him with our whole hearts. He promises that when we seek Him we will find Him (Jeremiah 29:12-13). But as we seek Him what do we find in Him? When we come into Him and search Him, what do we find? We find us. When you seek the Lord with your whole heart and search Him, you will find yourself. You will find that you inhabit his whole heart.

Zephaniah 3:17 KJV The LORD thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love, he will joy over thee with singing.

Deuteronomy 32:10 "He found him in a desert land And in the wasteland, a howling wilderness; He encircled him, He instructed him, He kept him as the apple of His eye.

11As an eagle stirreth up her nest, fluttereth over her young, spreadeth abroad her wings, taketh them, beareth them on her wings:

12 So the LORD alone led him, and there was no foreign god with him.

No false god, no evil entity, no lust, pride, envy or jealousy.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

cultivate and plant

For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.
(Hebrews 4:12 ESV)

The word of God is alive and well preserved because it's everlasting.  When we hear his word two events occur either we are hardened by His word or it cultivates our hearts for it's planting.  That planting will produce great fruits to be consumed by the body of Christ and those that are out of the way of God but who He's working on.

The Word of God brings life and preservation from mental, physical and emotional destruction.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

You Say/God Says

You say: "It's impossible." God says: All things are possible. (Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired." God says: I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me." God says: I love you. (John 3:16 & John 13:34)
You say: "I can't go on." God says: My grace is sufficient. (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out." God says: I will direct your steps. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't do it." God says: You can do all things. (Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able." God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it." God says: It will be worth it. (Romans 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself." God says: I FORGIVE YOU (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage." God says: I will supply all your needs. (Philippians 4:19)
You say:
"I'm afraid." God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear. (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated." God says: Cast all your cares on ME. (I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I don't have enough faith." God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith. (Romans 12:3)
You say: "I'm not smart enough." God says: I give you wisdom. (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone." God says: I will never leave you nor forsake you. (Hebrews13:5)

Saturday, October 24, 2009


just a thought ...

the negative criticisms that we have toward  ourselves often draw the same criticisms from other people.

How do you see yourself? 

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Red (Poem)

18+ poem. This isn't the type of things that i usually write about but i was in a different mood so this is what came of it.

Black shoes, Red dress and belt.
Out in the world selling the best seller.
Encase you haven't heard, sex sells.
My story doesn't matter, I'm out selling tail or selling
myself whatever self entails.

His eyes always says spare me the details
and lay on your back, flat no, here, here's a pillow it's better...
for me anyway or bend over that way, I can't see the shame on
your face.

Red learned to escape with a little coke-weed...
hopefully, this won't take too long.
A need to feel free mentally escaping into
Guilt Freedom from this money game she plays
accenting her body in men's faces, they can't turn away...
She learned to lure their visual her way, control.
sons, brothers, fathers, uncles, husbands, they all play a
role, if they could love *her* a few moments those few
moments make her feel whole, complete, a person, she matters
as a matter a fact she never means to attack their visual
but she needs their attention, she was never paid attention to.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Hanging on to unforgiveness creates in us the necessity to build and maintain a facade.

Hanging on to unforgiveness creates in us the necessity to build and maintain a facade.

Jesus wants us to be totally honest, transparent, believable and consistent. He wants the transformation of our inner being to be so complete that what we show to others is who we truly are. We must be willing to be washed clean inside and out. Otherwise, we are but a superficial reflection of God's love, filled with impurity behind our facade.
Whenever we remain unforgiving, we become like the Pharisees who demanded compliance with the letter of the law, yet held intolerance and self-righteousness within their hearts.

Luke 11:39-40 ESV And the Lord said to him, "Now you Pharisees cleanse the outside of the cup and of the dish, but inside you are full of greed and wickedness. (40) You fools! Did not he who made the outside make the inside also?

Both in action and in attitude we must be transparent, allowing God's love and grace to permeate our entire being. Purity within and without invites others to know us without reservation. Unforgiveness lodged in our heart creates a false, fleshly protective wall that separates who we really are from the image we project to the world.

We don't want people to know our innermost thoughts and motivations so we erect barriers to keep others from getting too close
We don't invite others into fellowship with us for fear they'll see the truth of our family life.
We avoid telling stories on ourselves because we have to maintain an image of having it all together.
We are afraid to go to a counselor because we know we will be confronted and have to deal with issues that may be painful.
We can't risk or be spontaneous because we have a need to keep everything under control.
We can't adventure because we're insecure if asked to move outside our comfort zone and risk things we aren't sure will work.
We don't trust others to love and accept us if they really knew who we are.

Building facades such as these to protect our unforgivenesses means that we are living a lie. That puts a terrific amount of stress on us--stress which will eventually take its tole in alienation from others and from God, breaking the unity of the kingdom. We must not use the security of our own salvation experience to excuse that part of us which remains unregenerate.

John 4:19-20 ESV The woman said to him, "Sir, I perceive that you are a prophet. (20) Our fathers worshiped on this mountain, but you say that in Jerusalem is the place where people ought to worship."

1 John 1:6-7 ESV If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. (7) But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin.

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Monday, September 28, 2009

reconciling a bad break...uhhh??? ::sigh:: Lol but it's Gods way

I recently got out of a relationship that start to get bad (verbally abusive) not severely but it was going into that direction. The person started drinking very heavily and now i understand that alcohol can change your personality. He became very uptight and not respectful of himself or me and difficult to get along with. I stayed some what supportive for the last 3 months we were together but I was so miserable in the relationship I had to leave as I realized he wasn't or isn't ready to take responsibility for himself yet. I've been crying at various times since I've been out of his life first because I was so angry and then I was hurt and i cried because of that and then finally I cried because I felt compassion for him because, he's blinded by his own ambition to find happiness in something that he's well aware provides emptiness. What would God say to something like that?

Am I a fool? I want to be reconciled to this person and no, not in a relationship. I believe that portion is very much so over unless God would change us both in a strong way. I'm torn between whether or not God would really want something like that or if I feel like I should make one last and i mean this in a good way, 'desperate' attempt to try and be some positive person in his life if he would allow. The last thing i said directed toward him was that he needed help for his anger and addiction to alcohol. He told me I needed to move on, I simply repeated myself...a couple of weeks after that. I woke up with John 3:16 repeating in my mind, I knew that I was hearing Gods voice and that he wanted me to share that with him, well I did but I sort of doubt that he saw it or saw it and thought i was doing that in bad taste, I really don't know. I've been reading about forgiveness and reconciliation and about what to do when we have done someone wrong or when someone has done us wrong. Fear has come over me because I know who I'm dealing with. It doesn't take one month for me to all of a sudden become a perfect loving child of God and for him to become the most generous, respectful person in the world. God showed me his heart and I felt compassion because God showed me his heart has been crushed under the issues of life and the little hope he probably has is being distracted by worldly desires, we've ALL been there. God more directly has shown me, myself in the situation and that I broke away in desperation and I didn't allow myself patience through Him to say what I wanted to say in Love and the honest truth. I had a responsibility that I did not fulfill. Lord forgive me! My fantasy would be he would up and contact me an apologize but that is my pride speaking to me. God loves us all and we are drawing very close to the very end of Days. There are children of God everywhere that God is beckoning to come home no matter they've done. If God wants this reconciliation to be done, I will definitely not be hasty and if i am wrong I will accept this as a time to heal and move on in the Lord.

Thank you for reading

Sunday, September 27, 2009

God wants us to be one with Him

Rom 5:10 For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life.

"For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son..."

We were at a point 'forever' separated from God by the works of our flesh, the increase of sin, and our own rebellious age.

World Population : Almost 7 Billion people living on the earth today.

If we consider the amount of people that have gone into eternity and having known Christ in correlation to how many people have lived on earth since it's creation, most people have gone into eternity without God from either ignorance or refusal to accept the words and work of Christ and submission to the will of God. His existence is evident through out all creation and His love is also evident through out all creation.

Well we know God is love, justice and the truth, how would that relate to us being one with Him?
HIS LOVE is the reason why Christ existed before the creation of the whole world. We were created in the likeness of God. He created us from Himself 2Timothy 1:9-10 Who hath saved us, and called us with an holy calling, not according to our works, but according to his own purpose and grace, which was given us in Christ Jesus before the world began, (10) But is now made manifest by the appearing of our Saviour Jesus Christ, who hath abolished death, and hath brought life and immortality to light through the gospel:

HIS JUSTICE has called us to be free of the charges against us which would be the many sins we've committed against Him. He is our Judge.
Galatians 2:16 yet we know that a person is not justified by works of the law but through faith in Jesus Christ, so we also have believed in Christ Jesus, in order to be justified by faith in Christ and not by works of the law, because by works of the law no one will be justified.

HIS TRUTH tells us that He loves us but we are in danger of his wrath if we remain disobedient. If we work for an employer and we've been told not to do a certain thing and we continue even though we may have been warned eventually, we will suffer the consequences of our actions unless we repent and move forward without diverting.

Like what was state in the above verse, Christ was created for us BEFORE the world began. God already prepared for us a savior, Jesus the Christ.
Some parents when their child goes off on their own to live life they create a place for them to return if they want to come home. Some children go as far away as possible and others stay close because they know that they need their parents. God can be seen in this light. God gave us the choice to stay in His presence and will or depart from Him and live by our own life and standards. He created a safe haven for us in case we want to come Home. Many are called to return but very few actually do it.
1 Peter 1:18-20 Forasmuch as ye know that ye were not redeemed with corruptible things, as silver and gold, from your vain conversation received by tradition from your fathers; (19) But with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot: (20) Who verily was foreordained before the foundation of the world, but was manifest in these last times for you,1 Peter 1:21 Who by him do believe in God, that raised him up from the dead, and gave him glory; that your faith and hope might be in God.

foreordained: to know beforehand, that is, foresee: - foreknow (ordain), know (before).

-1. The act of reconciling parties at variance; renewal of friendship after disagreement or enmity.

I love the fact that God wants us to be reconciled to him and live in oneness and unity. The enemies of God couldn't relate to those that desire to know God because their hearts and minds have been more or less infected by the works of the enemy. He has tempted many and by allowance he (satan) has taken domination over many lives yet, God is above all things and if we would just resist the works of the devil, he will flee and God will minister his warm graces to us and we will come into unity with God.

"Reconciliation and friendship with God, really form the basis of all rational and true enjoyment."
Many people live well lives apart from the living God. But at a moment in our lives we've all wondered "is their more to life than this." I don't believe a person can truly be who they are with out God working in their life. He's calling us to be in unity with Him. The works of the flesh are destroying the earth that God created for us to maintain and live in, in harmony and unity with each other and the desires of our heart have gone the opposite direction. He's calling us to be one with each other and the drive and motivation to be successful and have ultimate power is causing division and strife everywhere, amongst national and international leaders, in schools, in corporate businesses, on jobs, in households and in the church.

The reason why God is able to be reconciled with us is because He has forgiven us of our sins through Christ. John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
John 3:17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
If God held on to unforgiveness and gave up on His created people every single person created from a man and a woman would be sent to utter damnation. Thank God He isn't like we've become without Him.
Colossians 1:13-14 He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, (14) in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

If God wanted you to be reconciled to Him, today, how would you react? Would you say, yes, no, maybe, I'm not ready or, I don't care? We all are going to have to make that choice and i believe over and over again through out the course of our lives until we either die without Him or accept Him while we are still breathing and have the confidence of saying that we are now one with the Father, God.

Be blessed and thanks for reading.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

God has a heart for us?

Moving on from something painful is very difficult to do and I've found simply confronting the pain is just as hard. When we make the conscience choice to confront that pain and hurt God is right there to comfort us. He will also show us where we sinned with-in what we feel. I've confessed in my heart love, forgiveness and letting go for someone who hurt me. I was praying one day in the afternoon i believe and God showed me this person drowning in a pool their hands and feet were bound, they could not move at all and this person was gasping for air. I envisioned the same situation for about 4 days. I could not figure out why i kept having this vision of this person drowning until God showed me if i want to find forgiveness and reconciliation to Him or possibly that person I must let go of them through the imprisonment of my unforgiveness. When I said in my heart "Lord I let go of them and release them to you for Your glory and power I envisioned that their hands broke free and flailed into the air. I must by the power of God shed in my heart prayer for my heart to release them and pray for myself to grow in the spirit of truth and love and for that person to be reconciled to the Father as a son of the living God through the Words and work of Christ. The world is a cruel place with out Christ and even crueler if you are out of His will when there is a call on your life. I heard once "there's no rest for the wicked" well, neither is their rest for the man or woman that has tasted from the Lords well of living water yet has decided to live outside of His Love and mercy. God is the ultimate satisfaction and he wants to bless us through and through from the inside out.


Luke 6:27-31 But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, (28) Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. (29) And unto him that smiteth thee on the one cheek offer also the other; and him that taketh away thy cloke forbid not to take thy coat also. (30) Give to every man that asketh of thee; and of him that taketh away thy goods ask them not again. (31) And as ye would that men should do to you, do ye also to them likewise.


Mat 18:21-35 Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times? (22) Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven. (23) Therefore is the kingdom of heaven likened unto a certain king, which would take account of his servants. (24) And when he had begun to reckon, one was brought unto him, which owed him ten thousand talents. (25) But forasmuch as he had not to pay, his lord commanded him to be sold, and his wife, and children, and all that he had, and payment to be made. (26) The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him, saying, Lord, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all. (27) Then the lord of that servant was moved with compassion, and loosed him, and forgave him the debt. (28) But the same servant went out, and found one of his fellowservants, which owed him an hundred pence: and he laid hands on him, and took him by the throat, saying, Pay me that thou owest. (29) And his fellowservant fell down at his feet, and besought him, saying, Have patience with me, and I will pay thee all. (30) And he would not: but went and cast him into prison, till he should pay the debt. (31) So when his fellowservants saw what was done, they were very sorry, and came and told unto their lord all that was done. (32) Then his lord, after that he had called him, said unto him, O thou wicked servant, I forgave thee all that debt, because thou desiredst me: (33) Shouldest not thou also have had compassion on thy fellowservant, even as I had pity on thee? (34) And his lord was wroth, and delivered him to the tormentors, till he should pay all that was due unto him. (35) So likewise shall my heavenly Father do also unto you, if ye from your hearts forgive not every one his brother their trespasses.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

What does the Bible say about getting revenge?

A Vindictive Attitude Hurts
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Of course, there are degrees of offense. But most people who want to get back at someone have not been mugged or criminally assaulted. The “offenses” quoted at the beginning of this article were rather insignificant, although they loomed large in the minds of the ones who decided to get even.

The Bible says that we should not cultivate a vengeful attitude. Proverbs 24:29 counsels: “Do not say: ‘Just as he did to me, so I am going to do to him.’” Why not? For one thing, such an attitude is emotionally and physically damaging. Vengeful thoughts take away peace of mind and hinder sound reasoning. Consider this news report: “Two farmers shooting from their pickup trucks killed each other in a parking lot, ending a 40-year feud that began when they were children.” Imagine, throughout their lives the thinking of these two men had been poisoned by a festering, vengeful spirit!—Proverbs 14:29, 30.

Another reason not to cultivate a vengeful spirit is that erring ones—even seriously erring ones—can change. The apostle Paul, for example, at one time ‘approved of the murder’ of the disciple Stephen and ‘breathed threat and murder against the disciples of the Lord.’ But he changed. Years later the apostle Peter—whose life had been in danger from Paul during that earlier time—called him “our beloved brother Paul.” (Acts 8:1; 9:1; 2 Peter 3:15) Christians could have tried to take revenge on Paul, especially when he was waiting, blind, in Damascus. (Acts 9:3-15) What a tragic mistake that would have been!

Paul could well counsel, therefore, at Romans 12:20: “If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.” Why? Because if we avenge ourselves on an enemy, we harden his attitude and cement the enmity between us. But if we do good to one who offends or hurts us, we may soften his attitude and make a former enemy into a friend.

Recognizing our own weaknesses also helps in overcoming the bitterness that leads to a desire for revenge. The psalmist asked: “If errors were what you watch, O Jah, O Jehovah, who could stand?” (Psalm 130:3) All of us have hurt or offended others. Were we not glad if they did not try to get even? Should we not, then, act with similar restraint? Jesus counseled: “All things, therefore, that you want men to do to you, you also must likewise do to them.”—Matthew 7:12.

True, the Bible says: “Hate what is bad.” (Psalm 97:10; Amos 5:15) But it does not tell us to hate the one doing the bad. In fact, Jesus commanded us: “Continue to love your enemies and to pray for those persecuting you.” (Matthew 5:44) If we repay injury for injury, we copy the spirit of the wrongdoer. The ancient proverb says: “Do not say: ‘I will pay back evil!’ Hope in Jehovah, and he will save you.” (Proverbs 20:22) What a wise attitude! How much better to show ourselves the winners by resisting the temptation to imitate wrongdoers.—John 16:33; Romans 12:17, 21.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

tragic (poem)

Religion is the bitter pill we hate but, we swallow it for whatever reason/
Gods way of saying, yup I made you in goodness but I didn't say easy livin
it's His freedom/ that catch us by the hand and squezes it when we learn Hard Lessons/
Jesus came to bless us/
The devil planted his seed, making love to the earth God created, creating waves of iniquity
The results disgusting...humanity: The Human Emergency..the mind of man evolving into insanity
Are you sad now? Worried, upset? ...he (satan) can't be trusted.
get your mind over what's the matter materially, sexually and physically and on seeking reality dumbed down Gods face towards you and yours, down.
"men loved darkness rather than light and evil rather than good things? Tragedy.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

cut me deep (poem)

this world provides a life like
life is a lonesome dove one step above
existence progresses and hell raises her
tidal waves./
redemption is a way of escape and a moment
given to save face./
we don't seek for it instead finding
malignity in the simple things
complicate a rich gift forfeiting your
goals in it's midst.
oh well, find you way in this
great tunnel evolving into a maze/
changing making you race/ and ending
in you hating the face/ in the mirror
oh hell has widened her mouth to meet and
greet us swiftly/ and the desire of the devil
is to sift/ me as wheat scattered among
the many i blamed for my choices
I'm crafty, i point my finger back at
my foes/
and with my dark curses i deliver the lowest
Oh God how did i become so cold/
and cruel unforgiving endlessly
my end is becoming exposed,/
i'm roasted and hoisted up to
the prince of the air.
All my prayers and declarations to the King/
won't stop him from increasing his attack on my
dreams/, my life is in his range of view/...painfully true/
is it because i refused most of my life to serve you
I can't do it...if God didn't rule this earth who would do it..
man by all means is incapable...emotional haste; inescapable
God coached me/ Jesus settled as the balance beam/, I mean to say
the balance between us (me and God)
bigger than all things material
this whole world rises and falls based on what's lawful in the spiritual/
realm of all things created.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Power in Realization

God is very gracious and merciful to us. As we get ourselves intertwined in the wrong situations and then leave hurt, or confused God is there to comfort us and give us clarity. It's never good to dwell on the past but reflection brings closure, forgiveness and understanding. I found it when i asked my father why he did not raise me. His answer allowed me to forgive him not because i liked what he said but because he was man enough to admit to his mistake which I always find to be very courageous and upstanding for anyone to do man or woman. We carry a sense of pride with us unwilling to admit to our faults and find the freedom that dwells in honesty. Life has that tendency to break us up into pieces leaving us scattered emotionally and in our everyday doings...not so, says the Lord He wants us complete and whole for His good purpose for our lives. If you're His child accept your faults and ask God for His guidance and help.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Crisis (poem)

CrisisBy Kimberly A. Brock Copyright© 2009
I’m writing this to tell you I care about you.
I write as a warning life is but a whisper as soon as it’s over it can’t be reversed.
The choice you make now can determine an early meeting with a hearse.
Since birth, we are born into wrong doing.
Deceived its right confuses winning with loosing.
I write to tell you your life is in danger.
I tried to help but you defended your deception in anger.
There’s no way to make a wrong thing right. Continue?
You’re Hope/Future is out of sight.
It gets worse from here unless you want to make a choice.
You’re too stubborn to listen sometimes; deception is in your own voice.
You say you’re Gods child.
His ways are stable, not wild.
His purpose is able not reluctant like a child.
His truth is valuable not foul.It only get’s worse from here, no matter what excuse you make. People loose their house over this and jobs then, they start to take from other people to get that Alcoholic break.
Maybe I care too much.
Maybe I’m out of line but, if I’m right look me up I’ll be doing better. Progress takes time.If you don’t stop you’re going to die, you know about my dad.
The sadness in my voice when I recollect the past.
You don’t know the anger inside at the way he treated his life.
Tell me you’re alright.
Tell me you have control.
Tell me you can stop because this thing soon gets old.
Nobody likes to be around drunks.
That’s why they wonder the streets.
I’m afraid if I stay you’ll start hitting & beating me like the man that hit his girlfriend.
You lived with them, remember?Is that you? Will that be your pride? You were wrong yet in your explanation you tried to hide your own misery.
I’ve been through this and been drunk stupid and embarrassed myself.
I can’t believe you don’t think how you acted should be put on a shelf and left to collect dust.
I can write until this pen gets rusty and useless.
Think for once where you are headed.
The road to success is in the other direction.
I pray to God He will bring you to an intersection and shows you a route.
With all the insurmountable mistakes life is death with out Him.

Friday, July 31, 2009

Forgiveness (poem)

Strapped between two edged seats. ~
Sin & Unforgiveness; the two ends meet &~
greet ~you with a hug~, and part with a tug, pulling you apart with its tug. ~
Pulling your mind apart with a grudge. ~
If that’s not enough~, relationships become shattered dreams~
& goals, distant memories. ~
Focusing on your enemies and all your energies
on avenging. God says “Vengeance is mine.”
Walking side-by-side with sin. ~
Unleashing your wrath upon unsuspecting men. ~
Turning your back to the possibility of close friends~,
forfeiting prospects of success. ~
Are you looser to this unforgiveness fixation? Yes~
God’s train of thought: Give & it shall be given to you,
pressed down, shaken together and running over shall men give unto a benevolent heart~
Without forgiveness, love can’t even get start-ed~
Sin by revelation is Love departed, ~
& replaced with inordinate affection mixed with unreasonable obsessions, ~
seasoned with jealousy and pride~,
covered in “hide-go-seek” insecurities.
How long shall we go on living this psychotic life-style? ~
Meanwhile~, the offender has vanished from the situation & and left you holding the bag~
Too much to handle? Give it to the Lord. Be diligent. He can carry much more than ½ ~ His healing requires 1 x 1 of Him and Us. ~
We love Him because He first loved us. That’s beginning of trust ~on the road to a hope & future.

Thought Process (Poem)

"The fining pot is for silver, and the furnace for gold: but the LORD trieth the hearts..." of all men on this earth.
So, if man from birth was born into sin & the heart is tried through matters un-repentant...What is your end?
An evil–doer giveth heed to wicked lips; and a liar giveth ear to a mischievous tongue man's heart is filled with issues.
Speak them not. You are what you eat and speak into the Atmosphere.
If God be for me in Love, His light so shineth when darkness appears.
His Mercy so shines as I'm facing my worst moment & His purpose so shines as life looks like, mission impossible.
Unsuccessful for me is a nightmare and inspriation is a mountain. I'm starting at the base.
Thinking ahead into failure stares me in the face.
"Be not therefore anxious for the morrow: for the morrow will be anxious for itself...."
Real fortune is knowing God & knowing yourself.
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil to give you an expected end
Power in thought the wrong way can toss you to and fro in deceptions turbulent wind.
Seek wisdom as silver and gold. Life is obtained there.
"Thought and character are one, character can only manifest and discover itself through circumstance..."
When trials come, rise to the occasion and speak thou therefore what God has said...
"Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed:
for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest"
Life and death is manifest in what we speak
Misery and suffering Lord come quickly
Our world cant be changed sin has delivered us out of the range. Can't you restore you're ways and establish praise on this earth?
Has sin so much increased more people are marked for death than re-birth?
Greed has seered mens conscience so much so they rob the poor and lowly?
Government officials take pride in their theft...Have mercy on you're people God & help our unbelief
Forgive my anger, I'm trying to find my way. Forgive my mistakes day to day is a battle to stay sane
Forgive my unbelief I feel like I don't know who I am sometimes.
Forgive my rants I speak out of's just that...
The tree in the garden was like the Kryptonite of mankind and Man contaminated generations.
Why is our suffering from the decisions unknown to's hard to trust you life is supposed to be more abundantly
mysterious ways make you unknown to me because I don't believe in blind faith neither do I live the Christian fantasy
like nothing is going on
distracted by religious concepts when the world is going wrong.

Stand , Mighty Man (Poem)

Stand, Mighty Man, your future is at hand
Stand, Mighty Man, in Gods image you have been created to grace His land
Stand, Mighty Man, life is hard and Gods plans are greater than you can dream
Stand, Mighty Man, the world is at your feet
No weight is so heavy as it is for a man to be accomplished
Indulgence in emptiness forfeits a childhood wish
And dreams die, God tries to resurrect the loss
Living then dying sometimes is only what life seems to be
The past haunts us men and women
What we might have become if we would have pursued....
this or that dream?
This or that man/women? This or that career?
That past is usually forgotten and thrown in the sea
What do we think of the things we had opportunities to do
and let doubt reclaim it's place in our minds
The power of a Mighty Man is in his hands and in his mind
Men lead the free world and are the most creative of our time
Where do you fit among the crowd Mighty Man
Stand, your among them.
Bad things occur and the world moves on...
a learning curb is born in experience and groomed in hope
of a better tomorrow matured in endurance and finally...
making your way to the adventure meant for you
Stand Mighty Man, God makes a way
Stand Mighty Man, He is a father and hopeful for you

for every dad, brother, son, uncle, cousin

a work still progressing (poem)

And God called His sons & daughters
into communion, a union of one
As a body, the head being Christ the
son, of men, who sacrificed life & limb
A result of this, let our new lives
begin as a unified body absent of sin,

We are plagued with iniquity, sin
age of self consumption pulling
away from his grip
His truth remains a stumbling stone & a rock
of offense even in this age where God
rarely exists in seriousness, conversation & understanding
His way, the body may as well be decayed
Most are on their Heaven that
is, in their minds..a slave to escapism
God commanded us to relay His message
speak at least an encouraging word
At least a handshake or smile, you still
occupy this earth

I want heaven as my home too & I understand
the hurt & pain but, is you family a concern? Friends?
Foes? A stranger? , A Child? remember who ministered
to you when your soul was in danger
God forgives sin and creates you a new
the gospel is a traveling message
never meant to be concealed and kept
hidden, Who did you avoid giving this message to?

Sunday, June 14, 2009


by Kimberly Andrea Brock {Copyright 2009}

"Heavy-set" thoughts weigh, tipping the scale of my sanity~
Inside; torments, outside; vanity~
I said to myself in an angry rage,~
God tore out my "hope & future" from His Eternal page~
I confess my sins eagerly, so you will bless me again.
It's not about reaping gold~, rubies, diamonds sapphires etc... of wealth though, you freely give
My heart is abandoned soil ready for cultivation. Make me whole.~
Being made in the secret place.~
I am fearfully and wonderfully formed by your grace.~
In the deepest place on earth, in darkness I was formed~
You know your plans for me, and a way of escape you've created for me when I'm swarmed~
Especially when, I'm war torn~ between You're reality & the fantasy of sin
Since a fantasy is the illusional part of our being,
and our desire to be fulfilled by our emotional ties~
God has called us to live by our faith, not where our emotions-lie~
The hope inside, unseen makes us aware~
Study the mirror; your reflection stands in it's glare~
If glory is looking back?, "Glory be the Most High"~
If sin is looking back at you? Scripture accommodates a change in your life~
It reads..." For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves..."~
"Jesus came not to condemn, but that the world be saved from poor health~
That all might come to a state of repentance.~
Glory road to the gates at entrance,~


by Kimberly Andrea Brock {Copyright 2009}

Practicing this process against a Christians belief system. ~
Men are informed by scientist that God is a mere figment.~
An instrument used to cope with issues of human existence~
"Opposition or contrariety to the Christian religion"~
Enmity for what we believe in? ~ or is it fear?
Someone once said, "You can't trust someone you don't know, Gods ways are mysterious."~
If that is entirely, "faith" is ridiculous. ~
As the substance of things hoped for
& the evidence of things not seen~
we trust the ways of God are substantial
& reach beyond our belief. ~
Yet His infinite wisdom keeps them under subjection, rightly divided through His Word of Truth.
His inward & exterior is glorious~
& contrary to what the majority has settled in, His plans for us are enormous~
Tel-e-vision tells of ignorant wisdom.
Movies tell of unbelievable living.
That perfect life is man created inescapable once you're in it,
a vortex of disappointments, drugs, alcohol and loveless sex.
Institutionalized sin keeps us infected slaves. ~
Gods Word provides a settlement for these ways within its page(s). ~
I'm confident in Gods persuasion. ~
If God were to grace the "Main Stage" I could see Him pointing @ the worst of men to get saved
and their disappointment at the way they perceived Him.
I can imagine God saying "I love you"~ with out executing judgment. We so rightfully deserve but God is merciful~
I'm praying for our unbelief.

I came across this word when i was searching for a topic to write on. I had never seen that word before so i searched it's meaning. With this poem I tried a little of my intellect. I know that I can be more versitile but it takes a strong effort and prayer to retain what I'm learning. Hope you folks enjoy.